I ventured into Manhattan the other day for a business meeting. I had forgotten just how deep my love/hate relationship with that city is. There is no other place like it in the world. A veritable explosion of colour, culture, and life. It takes my breath away. The greatest melting pot in the world. There is beauty to be found, nestled in sweetly among the harshness of the mean, loud streets. It makes my heart pound and my feet move quickly and it wraps me up like a wild, electric blanket. And at the same time, I hate it. That city makes me miss the quiet of my own neighborhood with a sharp fierceness. When we’re out walking at home, everyone says hello. In the city, I can pass 500 people in ninety seconds and not one of them even looks me in the eye. For me, the worst thing about the city is the smell. It’s putrid, and sometimes it smells like every awful thing in the world has just collapsed in on itself and died right there. I can’t leave without a headache.

Still, I am drawn to it. The love/hate dichotomy is strong and I am pulled in like a moth to a flame. It’s only an hour away, but I hadn’t been in since I was eight-months pregnant with Roman. This trip may have been my last one for another long stretch or it may have been the first one of many to come soon. Time will tell.

Oh, New York. How I love/hate you.

9 thoughts on “Oh, New York”

  1. I LOVE NYC. When Gray and I started dating he was living there. It’s such a rush. But, I always told him I could never live there. Maybe when I was younger, but not at this point. I totally get it mama.

  2. I’m indifferent to NYC. When we lived in Scarsdale, New York, sure is was fun to go down sometimes, take the train and do something, but it was ALWAYS a big ordeal and we would spend so much money.

    But Rob loves it and constantly talks about how he’s so excited to take Sam to the museums one day. Although, I also can’t wait to go back to the MET, it’s such an amazing museum.

    1. The museums are one of my favourite things about this city for sure. 🙂 We should go together some day! Let me know next time you guys plan a trip up here!!

  3. I always regret wearing flip flops to the city. As soon as I come home, I have to immediately wash my feet in the tub to scrub off the black filth on them. I have the same love/hate relationship with NYC.

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