When I wrote earlier this month that I could feel big changes stirring in my bones, I wasn’t prepared for quite how big those changes would be & how quickly they would take hold. This past month has been one of the most difficult ones that I’ve had in awhile. I’ve been presented with more physical and emotional challenges than I care to count. The hardest part about it has been that I have chosen (and am choosing to) keep these struggles quiet. I’ve been relying heavily on the support of my closest friends & family. It’s difficult because since I started this blog in 2009, I’ve always been very public about my journey. Whether I was writing about my depression; struggling with weight loss; or announcing my marriage. But these recent struggles have been a little bit different, there are elements involved that have made me decide not to share… yet.
I have some really enormous decisions to make and it’s a little bit terrifying. To make things more difficult, I am in a lot of physical and emotional discomfort.
“Think of your pain like a big bunch of red roses, a beautiful thorn necklace. Everyone has one.” ―Francesca Lia Block
“These pains that you feel are messengers. Listen to them. Turn them to sweetness.” ―Rumi
Right now, I am putting one foot in front of the other. Sometimes, that’s all you can do. That and follow your heart. It’s the one thing that won’t ever steer you wrong.