one month //

One-Month-Old Marina Grace

DenaApril 20, 2015

one month //

I honestly can’t believe that this sweet face is one-month-old! My first month with Roman went by so slowly. Every day and night with him felt like an eternity. Matthew was working long, 14-hour days. My postpartum hormones were all over the place. I was sore as hell. Breastfeeding took the life out of me. And I cried for hours every day. Fast-forward to this time around and I literally couldn’t believe that four weeks had passed. I checked the calendar to be certain — three times.

one month //

I wouldn’t say that it has been “easy.” Life with a newborn is not easy, but it has been significantly easier and different in many ways. My labor was quicker, Marina was smaller, and my physical recovery was a lot quicker & less painful. Matthew and Roman are here with me every day, so there’s no such thing as lonely. Breastfeeding has been a breeze — I am very comfortable with it after the nineteen months I spent nursing Roman.

one month //

The two most significant challenges we’ve faced have been sleep and her lack of independence which are tied together. Long story short, she simply hates to be put down. She wants to be held constantly, preferably by me and preferably with a boob in or near her mouth. For the first few weeks, this was ideal. I needed to rest and recover, so I spent most of my days on the couch. She was so quiet and content in my arms and it was really beautiful.

Now, however, it’s a month later and I’m ready to start getting on with life — or at least ready to do some laundry, play with Roman, clean dishes, vacuum, take photos, blog, and so on. Much to my dismay, little Miss Marina is having none of it. As soon as I put her down, she screams bloody murder. Early on, I tried to use a baby carrier in an effort to simultaneously hold her and get things done, but it just wasn’t working for us. Now that she’s a little older, and her neck has gotten quite strong, I will try again.

one month //

The challenge that we have with sleep is much the same. I put her down and she cries. So, I’ve ended up going the same route with her that I went with Roman and sleeping with her in my arms. We slept on the couch for the first month and we’ve just recently started side-sleeping and we spent half a night in my bed, as well. I didn’t resist it the way that I did with Roman. With him, I lamented for three months over the fact that he wouldn’t sleep alone. This time around, I know just how quickly these early months will pass and I’m doing my best to cherish every precious moment.

one month //

Overall, things have been good. We have our good hours and our bad hours. There are plenty of tears. Sometimes — especially in the middle of the night when I am bone-tired and nothing will settle her — I feel like I’m about to reach the end of my rope and I pray for a way out. That said, there are also plenty of smiles, so much laughter, and so many moments of such overwhelming gratitude that it brings me to my knees. The good outweighs the bad by leaps and bounds. This sweet girl is the most beautiful addition to our lives. She is the piece of the puzzle that was missing and we love her so much that it hurts. ♥

Comments (7)

  • Trendy Emmy

    April 20, 2015 at 10:12 am

    She’s beautiful. Sorry about the lack of sleep though. That’s always rough. It’s never easy falling asleep with a little one in your arms. I tried with Ellie but I was always terrified I’d drop her or accidentally roll on top of her. Luckily, as time passed, she’s fine sleeping on her own. Hopefully the same will happen for you two very soon!

    1. Dena

      April 20, 2015 at 2:22 pm

      Thanks, Emmy. The same happened with my first. He started sleeping on his own around six months. 🙂 That’s why I’m enjoying this time while I have it. He wouldn’t sleep with me now even if I wanted him to. hahaha…

  • baby awesome

    April 20, 2015 at 5:51 pm

    Love them when they are this small, so beautiful, brings back memories of when our little Reuben was like that, seems so long ago now!

  • Ashley

    April 20, 2015 at 10:34 pm

    I stubled across your site and just wanted to say you have such a beautiful baby. I remember this all too well. Enjoy it while you can because it will be over before you know it!

  • Jordan | Berlin By the Bay

    April 22, 2015 at 5:34 pm

    Oh my goodness, I just want to eat her up. These pictures are too darling! Congrats on hitting one month, its a big hurdle! I still don’t get any sleep and Berlin is now 2.5, so I hope it gets better for you soon!

    1. Dena

      May 18, 2015 at 2:21 pm

      it means so much to know that i’m not alone. thank you so much for your sweet words, mama. xo

  • Momista Beginnings

    June 4, 2015 at 8:53 pm

    I’m trying to get around to commenting on so many posts I’ve missed or just didn’t have the time to read. So pardon the dump of comments coming your way. She’s soooooo beautiful. You guys create lovely children. And that headband! I need more head/hair pieces over here. Crazy how different two babies can be, right? Glad you at least feel more experienced. Definitely a good thing that your second was the more difficult, it’s even harder trying to deal with it all when you have NO CLUE what you’re doing with a first. -Misty

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