Getting to this point——deciding to winter in spring——was a long process. It was an excruciatingly slow descent from a period of general wellness and peace to this very dark, seemingly hopeless place. Right now, I am sitting at the kitchen table. A eucalyptus and spearmint candle has been burning all morning. There is a vase of lilacs to the left of me. Between the scent of the lilacs and the…
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Wintering in Spring
Read moreI’ve started this so many times. But I could never get it right. So I kept putting it off. And then months went by and then years went by. Finally, I realized that it was never going to be “right.” I was always going to…
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It is July
Read moreIt is the second week of July. The air is thick & sweet with moisture and the scent of thriving leaves. The little, wooded path that we walk on daily is reaching its peak of wildness. Everything is thick and green. There are gnats and…
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let me tell the stories;
Read moreLet me go back. Let me tell the stories. They will come out of me in a great heave, the way they always have. All that I have held onto, all that I have held in. Let me release it. Let me tell the stories.…
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heartspill; the golden period returns
Read moreThere was this stretch of time in my mid-twenties that I called “The Golden Period” because life felt so beautiful. My days and nights were warm and dreamy and magic. It was as though everything was coated with sugar and gold-dust. I remember living through…
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they look like dreams;
Read more“My mouth is a fire escape. The words coming out don’t know that they are naked there is something burning in here.” –Andrea Gibson December// We are sitting in a hot tub in the dead of winter, falling in love. It is far below freezing…
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What I’ve Learned: My Swan Song for 2018
Read more“If you want to know what it’s like to survive hell and still come out shining brighter than the sun, just look into the eyes of a woman who has survived intense damage and refused to allow it to destroy her softness.” –Nikita Gill For…
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a little heart-spill & a spring walk (finally!)
Read moreIt’s finally happened. The snow has melted, the flowers have opened, and the earth is alive with the warmth & joy of springtime once again. This is the moment that we’ve been waiting for through the long, cold winter. I kept Roman home from school…
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january 2018: heart spill
Read moreIt’s been a long-time coming, but a lot of the things that I have been praying for, for so long, have finally come to pass. I am grateful and humble. Soon my life will be marked with sweeping changes and before all of that happens,…