Let me go back. Let me tell the stories. They will come out of me in a great heave, the way they always have. All that I have held onto, all that I have held in. Let me release it. Let me tell the stories. I will go backward. There will be no chronology. Only the ebbing and flowing of my memory—images, lapping up on the shores of my mind.…
heart spill
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heartspill; the golden period returns
Read moreThere was this stretch of time in my mid-twenties that I called “The Golden Period” because life felt so beautiful. My days and nights were warm and dreamy and magic. It was as though everything was coated with sugar and gold-dust. I remember living through…
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they look like dreams;
Read more“My mouth is a fire escape. The words coming out don’t know that they are naked there is something burning in here.” –Andrea Gibson December// We are sitting in a hot tub in the dead of winter, falling in love. It is far below freezing…
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What I’ve Learned: My Swan Song for 2018
Read more“If you want to know what it’s like to survive hell and still come out shining brighter than the sun, just look into the eyes of a woman who has survived intense damage and refused to allow it to destroy her softness.” –Nikita Gill For…
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a little heart-spill & a spring walk (finally!)
Read moreIt’s finally happened. The snow has melted, the flowers have opened, and the earth is alive with the warmth & joy of springtime once again. This is the moment that we’ve been waiting for through the long, cold winter. I kept Roman home from school…
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january 2018: heart spill
Read moreIt’s been a long-time coming, but a lot of the things that I have been praying for, for so long, have finally come to pass. I am grateful and humble. Soon my life will be marked with sweeping changes and before all of that happens,…
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Winter Solstice // I Still Love So Hard
Read more“I’ve been hurt so bad and I still love so hard. I admire my heart for that.” –Alexandra Elle, Words from a Wanderer Today is the Winter Solstice, the shortest day of the year–all of the days of darkness have been leading up to this…
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// leaning into joy
Read moreThere are three ways to deal with a problem, I think. Lean into it. Lean away from it. Run away. You lean into a problem, especially a long-term or difficult one, by sitting with it, reveling in it, embracing it and breathing it in. The…
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Seasons, Rain, Success
Read moreWe were walking today, and even though it’s the height of summer, the berries are already starting to form on the bushes. It reminds me that the bright berry days of autumn aren’t far away. In our favorite craft store, the summer decor has already…