Getting to this point——deciding to winter in spring——was a long process. It was an excruciatingly slow descent from a period of general wellness and peace to this very dark, seemingly hopeless place. Right now, I am sitting at the kitchen table. A eucalyptus and spearmint candle has been burning all morning. There is a vase of lilacs to the left of me. Between the scent of the lilacs and the…
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Wintering in Spring
Read moreI’ve started this so many times. But I could never get it right. So I kept putting it off. And then months went by and then years went by. Finally, I realized that it was never going to be “right.” I was always going to…
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On Starting Over Again with Self-Kindness
Read moreDuring this first year of twin motherhood, my physical wellness has slipped away once again. Mentally and emotionally I’ve done remarkably well. I’ve been hit with obstacle after obstacle during these 12 months but I’ve handled it all with grace. I’ve remained present. I’ve enjoyed…
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Until We Meet Again, Grandma: Evolving Thoughts on Death
Read moreWhen I found out that my grandmother had stage 4 ovarian cancer, I was crushed. I wrote at the time about how I was not afraid to die but I was afraid to lose. Little did I know then that over the next couple of…