what spring does…

    Dena April 29, 2013

    “I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.” ―Pablo Neruda Although she held out as long as she could, Spring has finally made her grand appearance — even up here on our little mountain. The front yard is littered with bright purple violets + golden dandelions. Our flowering bushes (which were budding in these photographs) have opened in their magenta glory. Down the road —…

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  • The Button Tin

    Dena September 16, 2012

    My grandmother collected buttons in a red and yellow tin. As a girl, I played with those buttons for hours and hours and hours. I sorted them by size, by shape, and by colour. I named them. I made them into families. I knew which…

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  • My Grandmother’s Records

    Dena September 2, 2012

    My mother and her siblings have been going through the painful process of cleaning out my grandmother’s house. I’ve been in & out a few times. I took some things that have a lot of sentimental value to me—drawings by a much younger version of…

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  • golden afternoon: goodbye

    Dena July 3, 2012

    My Mom mom was a most wonderful woman. She had a big heart and a beautiful smile. She took care of me when I was sick. She made me oodles of noodles & the best grilled cheese sandwiches that I’ll ever have. When I was…

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  • Losing a Pet

    Dena June 9, 2011

    For the past two weeks I’ve been intensely struggling with Mika’s death. Long story short, she was my baby. I raised her from a tiny kitten. I considered her a daughter and not a pet. She was an inside/outside cat. She was a hunter. Sometimes…

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  • Be Like Water

    Dena April 5, 2011

    My new mantra came to me during my Monday morning meditation: Be like water. It was during my first reading of the Tao Te Ching, that I realized the true supremacy of water. Water is fluid, soft, and yielding. But water will wear away rock,…

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  • Until We Meet Again, Grandma: Evolving Thoughts on Death

    Dena February 12, 2011

    When I found out that my grandmother had stage 4 ovarian cancer, I was crushed. I wrote at the time about how I was not afraid to die but I was afraid to lose. Little did I know then that over the next couple of…

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  • Finding Beauty & Strength in Pain

    Dena October 28, 2010

    October has always been one of my favorite months. Halloween is my favorite holiday. Autumn in New Jersey is gorgeous—the air smells crisp & sweet, of wonderful things like apple cider, pumpkin pie, & fallen leaves. The trees are afire with ghastly splashes of red,…

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  • The Saddest Day of My Life: How to Deal with the Loss of a Pet

    Dena October 12, 2010

    On Saturday, October 2, our cat—Mika—went outside before we left for a birthday party. We got home around 7:30 PM. Normally she would be there waiting for us, but this time she wasn’t. Sometimes she sleeps outside but she always comes home in the morning.…

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